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[onlyoneof]

[shhh shhh only continuations now]

Comments

[skepticalities]

— that gets you to talk?

[onlyoneof]

What? You should be aiming for positive reinforcement!

[skepticalities]

I'm not going to do that every time you sulk. It sends the wrong message. If you want something . . . talk to me.

[onlyoneof]

I should've stayed quiet until you kissed me properly.

[skepticalities]

You would've been quiet for awhile.

[onlyoneof]

Why can't you just cater to my irrational moods?

[skepticalities]

Because then you'd be irrational more often to get attention.

[shifts a bit so he's facing him.]

[onlyoneof]

I wouldn't. I don't enjoy it at all.

[skepticalities]

[reaches over to touch his cheek lightly.]

What is it today, Peter?

[onlyoneof]

[see? You win so easily]

I don't know. It's a cycle, I want things and then I feel guilty for wanting things, and then I get angry at myself for feeling guilty, which then gets redirected to whoever is close enough.

[skepticalities]

Do I need to tell you it's okay to want things again? You might not always get them, but there's nothing wrong with wanting them.

[onlyoneof]

I know it's okay to want things, hence the being angry at myself.

[skepticalities]

. . . do you want to know something?

[onlyoneof]

Only if I'm going to like it.

[skepticalities]

You might. And then again, you might not.

[onlyoneof]

Shoot.

[skepticalities]

The other reason I got annoyed was because you were . . . probably right on some level.

[onlyoneof]

... it was a joke.

[skepticalities]

Oh, I know that.

[onlyoneof]

Good.

[skepticalities]

So. You're not the only one who gets irrational. And it's okay.

[pulls his hand back to Peter's shoulder, rubbing at it lightly.]

[onlyoneof]

[ughhh I love you]

I doubt you feel as dumb as I do about it.

[skepticalities]

I feel dumb a lot. I think most people do.

[onlyoneof]

[I'm taking both of our books and then cuddling you]

[skepticalities]

[oh.

okay. .///.]