MORE IC THREADINGS

[onlyoneof]

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[skepticalities]

I'm not that thrilled about it, actually.

[onlyoneof]

That's... sort of hurtful...

[skepticalities]

I'm sorry, it's not— it isn't you.

[onlyoneof]

Even with the truth effect it's hard to believe that not wanting to have sex with me isn't about not wanting to have sex with me.

[skepticalities]

I like you. I just . . .

[pauses, as if he's trying to collect his thoughts.]

There's been a lot of build-up. Like you said, it shouldn't be a big deal but for some reason, it is. But it's just sex.

[onlyoneof]

... yes. We agree up to that point.

[skepticalities]

Right.

[onlyoneof]

And after that point you somehow reach not wanting to, and I go to wanting to as soon as possible.

[skepticalities]

I said I wasn't thrilled about it. And I'm not. There are a lot of expectations there. It makes me uneasy knowing that if we could have just gone wild from the start, our relationship would be completely different. And I know that's irrational to some degree, but it's how I'm feeling. I'm not thrilled.

[onlyoneof]

[s-sort of annoyed but trying not to look it]

Look. What didn't happen doesn't really matter, I want to be with you now... and I don't mean just sex. I am looking forward to it, but I'm also looking forward to just sleeping with you without worrying about censoring my own thoughts so neither of us turns into an animal.

[skepticalities]

[considers that quietly, and then nods slowly.]

. . . okay.

[onlyoneof]

[god. DEEP BREATHS PETER]

[skepticalities]

[boy this is uncomfortable.]

[onlyoneof]

[YES WELL. I TOLD YOU NOT TO!!]

[skepticalities]

[sits there awkwardly.]

[onlyoneof]

So, have you been pretending you're fine with it all these time?

[skepticalities]

I said I wasn't thrilled. That doesn't mean I'm not fine with it.

[onlyoneof]

My bad. How long have you not been thrilled?

[skepticalities]

. . . awhile.

[onlyoneof]

How long? A month? Two? ... eight?

[skepticalities]

I don't know.

[onlyoneof]

[JFC!!!]

... when we make out, have you ever not wanted to?

[skepticalities]

No. When I haven't felt like it, I've told you.

[onlyoneof]

[seems to relax at that]

Geez.

[skepticalities]

[seems pretty annoyed in general by now.]

Thanks for the vote of confidence.