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[onlyoneof]

Falalala~

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[onlyoneof]

That's not fair. You know I would've stayed if you'd asked me to.

[skepticalities]

Actually, no. I didn't know.

[onlyoneof]

Well. I would have. I didn't know you wanted to talk because you didn't say anything.

[skepticalities]

You made it clear that you were annoyed at me. You'd normally just . . . storm off and spend your time at the workshop until you felt like coming back or until I went over there.

[onlyoneof]

I was cranky and I got up and I figured I'd work since I'd gotten dressed and all.

[skepticalities]

When you're like that, what makes you think you're approachable to any degree?

[onlyoneof]

How do you know I'm not if you don't try?

[skepticalities]

I have and it's sparked some of our other dumb fights. I'm not saying it's your fault, but what I'm getting at is that it isn't mine either.

[onlyoneof]

I didn't think we were fighting until you stormed off in the middle of the night.

[skepticalities]

I left because I didn't want to fight with you.

[onlyoneof]

[ugh sits on the edge of the bed and rubs his face]

I apologized when I came back. I went to bed, you fell asleep on your desk, and I woke you up rudely because you falling asleep on your desk was stupid. Then you ran off, despite me making it clear I didn't want you to.

[skepticalities]

. . . I was tired and you'd just woken me up rudely.

[onlyoneof]

You were gonna hurt yourself sleeping like that.

[skepticalities]

It was an accident and I was fine.

[onlyoneof]

It didn't feel like an accident. It felt like you not wanting to sleep with me, and it's really hard to see that any other way considering you usually read in bed.

[rubs his eyes again and sighs]

Look. I... ever since you reminded me we've been doing this for a year, I've been making a conscious effort not to sabotage what we have.

[skepticalities]

You're reading into things too much.

. . . whatever you want to do is fine with me, Peter.

[onlyoneof]

[flops back]

No, this is all up to you. I think we've proven things never go the way I want them to.

[skepticalities]

[. . . pokes at his side.]

I want to know what you want.

[onlyoneof]

[UGH 8(]

I want you to be happy.

[skepticalities]

What do you want, Peter?

[onlyoneof]

[NO. THIS IS GIVING HIM FEELINGS]

...

Give me a timeframe.

[skepticalities]

Hmm?

[onlyoneof]

I don't think very far ahead. So what do I want when? A week? A month?

[skepticalities]

Right now.

[onlyoneof]

I'd like to pretend that the past day or two never happened.